The disappearance and growth : May Hit n Missed

a decision for my life...

either it would be hurt my heart, my life or other people.... sound crazy, but must take a chance to my self.

don't want to live like this for a whole my life... i just don't wanna judge someone just because he or she didn't doing something good for a moment...

i just wanna feel the real people around me...how much they really care about me.

STOP faking my self with any imagine!

Even though it would be a bad decision, i will dare my self to take this chance.

isn't we need a sacrifice to get the best in our life? we need to take a look more than we ever think before... actually... i never felt like this before, so empty. my life changes in a moment, just feel like i'm losing all hope....

I do not want to sacrifice too much longer, if he can not defend what should be defended. if it disappear it should hurt less right?

i feel lied to, i feel used! when all he shown how worthy i am is during his free time but once again i think about this problem, talk to my self, It's never too late to start over. I've loved after the biggest fall of my life. I can love again after this easy fall :) I don't see how that is possible with all this crap going on that I'm doing alone.

Gorgeous May

what i found here... gorgeous!! like it?? 

4in1 Make Up Tag : Inspired by Shenny

4in1 make up tag inspired by my friend Shenny when i saw her pic doing a photo session for her maternity...

looks great... and i try this :

this make up can be use for four night party or event :

-Party (glam)

-Date

-Prom

-Clubbing

Just apply a shimmer blue in the corner, blend it on your eyes, then use yellow shadow on the top... blend it...

use shimmer blue eyeshadow for under line your eyes. don't forget to wear black eyeliner to make your eyes more powerfull :) 

why i use this shimmer blue?? i thought shimmer blue is more sexy than black or any colors for blue eyes softlense. more strong and i love it!!

use matte lipstick with soft color... it brings your lip more natural and not too heavy for your makeup

hope you gals love this tag, good luck!! thank for reading :*

with love,

ms meii

How to deal with break up?

Just wanna share how do you guys deal with your break up... friends around me have a problem with their relation, then break up... down...sad...frustrated, can't moved into a new relation for a month...for a years...

it doesn't mean i never felt it, everyone know how strong their self is. what you need is only fight your self for the memories, do not remember any happy moment with him.

it's just showing to other people how weak and too silly if you're wondering something could be back in time for someone whose never think about your feeling at all.

-Remember you once love the man... there's no need to call him name.. for it would make you look bad for dating him in the first place. A silent and clean break up is better than the drama. It drags things on longer that way

-Remember if you tell yourself something enough time. You will start to believe it and make it happen. Instead of doubting or feeling in the dump instead rebuild and give yourself a brand new make over. OPTIMISM IS KEY.

-Remember (do not have a fling just to get back at him) It doesn't make you look good at all and trust me getting back at him will not help your reputation for the next guy you do decided to love and date. YOU WORTH MORE THAN THAT.

-Remember it didn't work out for the best, God had another more perfect in store for you.

-Remember. You still have your girl friends. Take some time off. Doll your self away. No more lock and keys. No more fights and your freedom is yours to use wisely. Heal yourself emotionally before

-Remember. You gave it your best shot it didn't work out and it sucks but you will be okay.

I hope that helps. And trust me girls.. there's always plenty of more break ups. Mr. Right is the last guy you date after all of the Mr. Wrong

You jump into the next relationship. This way you give the next guy a fair shot without bias or holding back.

                 "how do you guys deal with break up show how mature you are"

with love,

ms meii

MAY Favorite : Product Review

Baru beli kosmetik baru nih... ^^

ada Ranee DuoColour Shiner, Ranee Lipstick dan Maybelline clear stick.

Ranee Duo Colour Shine ini bagus banget buat yg pake lipstick biar keliatan lebih shinny dan fresh pake yg warna bening, buat yg pake sehari" pake yg pink shiny nya ^^ Buagguuus banget saiii

Trus ke Ranee lipstick, pake lipstick ini gag perlu pake Ranee colour shiner lagi, cos lipstick ini uda glossy ^^ cocok pake saat party atau moment formal lainnya ^^

Yg ketiga pake Maybeline Clear Stick, biasanya sih aku pake ini sebagai gantinya BB Cream atau Foundation. Di pake nya lebih cepet rata dan gag perlu pake tangan lagi, pokoknya mudah banget pake nya, trus juga gag berat dan berasa tebal di muka ^^

Easy to wear and i recommended this clear stick more better than liquid bb cream.... <3

Check on my pic, i do not wear anything for my skin face, just clear stick!! come on...get it! hahahhaaha 

New Lipstick from Ranee!! Natural color with glossy lipstick CODE : 04

Ranee lipstick for young code 02. Love this, pink sheer color.

MUST HAVE ITEM!!!!!!!! IT"S BETTER MORE MORE MOREEE THAN LIQUID BB CREAM !!!

sorry for dark pic, low light in my room :(

This is the final look ^^

Talk about May Mei

i think this month is soo splendid... talk so many things with my long distance friends...

miss them so much...

Got a happy news from my friend Nicke,  will be married this year on December...

Talking about place where i was together with Meta...all of these picture is taken by Meta  *great editing and photographer love her pic always

Taken by Meta

Taken by Meta

Taken by Meta

Kenal sama temen baru yg di namain Mbok Iin, orangnya seru buangett... ^^ t think she is my reflection about my self :p

Talking about Shenny family.... so many thing we talk about. Ngakak abis denger cerita Shenny tetang suaminya yg beli MACAN waktu dia lagi pregnant dan bilang rumahnya uda kayak kebon binatang di liatin sama orang sekampung x_x

Shenny baby lion

Shenny with her baby lion

 meet NEW guy! it was such a great moment hahahaa

the best part is when you don't know how he is but he always care for you... always give you a reason to smile even when you are mad :) always talking and give you message even when he is busy...!! but i think a long distance relation is not really work out, moreover...just feels like he is still think about his ex, can't be move to a new relation hmmmm.... but God, i hope some miracle for this guy... is he still doing this for 2-3 month later?? we'll see...

Sometimes feel so bored with this 'things' need to know, going and meet some new guy over there... huh...

almost 3 weeks before bday...and i'm still like THIS???? my mom always talking about something i hate to talk about... a man! 

"your age turning every year... why didn't you get a man for your HUSBAND, have your own family" huhuhuhuhuu... so stressed , if i told her my motto like this :

"mom..life is so simple don't make me think it too hard, he will came to me" 

i am sure she will getting angry! OMG.... feels like i'm become stressed too much if we talking about this TT____TT 

do not have any specification about this... no need a man whose have much money to walk beside me. YES, Just love a man whose being his self and i trust, even we don't have much money but if we love each other, live in happy with laugh..together... everything is more easy to live... isn't?? so i just trying to build a relation, i trust God give me the best and it's never too late :) simple life isn't? ahahhahaa

people over me always talk to me and advice me to get a work...errrr...almost for this two month i just ignore three job offer for an accountant.... x_x  the last one is offer from my friend...and i ignore that....total four job offer -.-

i just love what i'm doing now....it doesn't mean i am LAZY! i just love my job now, without underpressure and where i can help and answer everyone, everytime... NO LIMITED. I'm not really think about money or position where i will look great, but i just think this is life and i should enjoyed this...

i think Happy, it doesn't always mean you have a good job and position, it doesn't mean you have much money and shopping everything what you want...having a big house, car or anything... 

happy is where you can feel so peace without hurting your life and another people....:)

Online Shop is my Job and i Love it

Watta NICE April...!!! i found sooo many people!!! 

Ketemu dengan suplier-suplier yg SUPER DUPER baik, ramah n cepet tanggap... :*

Akhirnya Doa gw di denger sm Tuhan, beberapa hari sebelumnya stress sm kerjaan, eeehhh gag tau'nya datang tak di jemput, datang gag di antar...

Memang yah, rejeki itu sudah di atur, sejauh kita semangat, optimis dan minta sama Tuhan pasti di kasih jalan.

Gag ada yg instant gals...semua perlu proses...dari sekian lama gw jd Online Seller, ketemu kualitas jelek, hrg modal yg selangit smp gw pun mikir-mikir mau jual lg ke cust...dan akhirnya ketemu dengan suplier gw skrg...sampe klo gw bandingin sm yg dulu kadang bikin gag enak hati :( Kenapa? ya karena hrg yg gw jual JAUH berlipat lebih murah....dengan barang yg SAMA bahkan lebih bagus...

Bulan ini juga ketemu dengan suplier yg bikin dag dig dug hahahaaa... bener-bener slow respon! mungkin banyak kerjaan kali yah, but she's nice... awalnya agak kurang meyakinkan....setelah trf dan janji mau kasih resi, bbm gag aktif, di sms gag masuk, ternyata pulsa abiiiisssss.....

order 1pc pertama, kejar resi dan gag bisa cek tiki online, omigod, apakah gw tertipu??? 

ternyata barangnya sampe dengan selamet dan gag ada komplain... Nextttt...langsung deh berani lanjut order 3pc hahahaha...

Ketemu dgn banyak cust yg bikin stresss T___T kadang resi kita gag bisa kasih cepet, karena masih harus nunggu, dan suplier jg gag ngurus 1 orderan aja. tapi yah...bisa di mengerti sih... asal jangan bawel dan marah-marah, padahal sudah di yakinkan...x_x Intinya sih dalam jual-beli online ya kepercayaan, kalau gag yakin ya gag usah beli, yg di tanya capek yg nanya jg capek...ahhahaha

Tapi banyak juga cust yg baek, gag bawel dan bikin seneng :* ketemu reseller and cust kayak sis marta, quina, picka, indah, ivo...sapa lagi yah, banyak deh pokoknya, makacih chayank buat kepercayaannya hehehee.... 

but it just a past...we talk about NOW...and this is end of April... thank April, i'll remember how sweet this month always...and hello May, be NICE again to me as before ok? 

Thank ma sweetest customers, ma sweetest suplier and ma reseller... all you guys doing a GREAT Job... work together and hope it will be last...

Keep strong everyone, work, stress, sad, mad... ain't that just life? Just doing something Good and you will get something Good too... 

Hei MAY... i am READY to FIGHTING yeay!!! :*